- Exercising - of course this is on everyone's list. For me this includes not just exercising for fitness but even for health like these exercises i'm supposed to be doing for spondylitis that i'm starting off with - did them for a couple of weeks but now I keep finding excuses for putting them off even at the risk of my neck beginning to feel quite stiff !
- Keeping accounts - I would dearly like to keep a tab on where all the money goes, but never manage to stick to keeping notes for more than days at a time! Tried doing it on paper, on excel, even budgeting software when I suddenly got an enthusiasm for it. Maybe it is an underlying belief that I'm sure that I'm not spending on frivolous items but only on stuff for the house and children, but it still leads to unnerving moments when I have withdrawn 5K days before and find nothing in my wallet :(
- Housekeeping - I see things lying around, I know they must be cleared up, but on some days my mind just refuses to order my arms and legs to go about it ! Drives my husband crazy when he comes home at the end of a tiring office day cos he's a bit of a cleanliness freak, but even at the cost of keeping the peace I just cannot get to it sometimes!
- This one is not about routine but about giving up routine - Farmville ! I keep telling myself to give it up and do something more constructive, and manage to do exactly that for a few days but then slowly find myself drawn back.. crops might have withered and I might have a million requests to return.. but yet here I am again at the same faintly irritated but addicted stage I was a week ago !!
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Routines
What is it with me and keeping to a routine about Anything? Here are the things that I want to be regular at but don't manage to get into a routine cos it got too monotonous after a while
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Impatience..
I have always considered myself short-tempered. This was not very obvious in a work environment which was my primary realm for 7 years, since the type of interactions you have with colleagues is of a more light-hearted type, and your personality doesn't come so much into professional dealings.
But in the last 5 and a half years, when I have been a stay at home mom bringing up my daughter and now my son too, it really worries me sometimes if my lack of patience is affecting their temperament in life too. I can see now that my son (who's already in his terrible twos) mimics my loss of temper with reacting the same way when I raise my voice to him. I wonder if impatience or short temper is in the genes or if it is something we pick up by example through our subconscious when we are at an impressionable age.
About 6 months back, I was diagnosed as hypothyroid and though I didn't have any major symptoms that I could figure out other than hairloss maybe, I have since then realized that "something" has just worsened my impatience. On some evenings I feel like the children are completely out of control and it builds up to such an extent that things just boil over and spill out. Thanks to my husband pointing out that it sounded like I was the one out of control, and that I sounded very unlike my usual self, that I have become more aware of these times, and manage to step back and hold on to my temper by taking deep breaths or some such thing. But on days like yesterday when he was not around and I was managing both the children on my own and they were making me repeat everything 10-20 times before getting things done, I just lost it :(.
I am hoping to put down some of these things to remind myself to work towards bettering the way things are. Any behavioural problems on the part of children are only compounded by our impatience or short temper being shown on them. Although I believe a totally soft upbringing is not the right way, we have to find the balance between reprimanding children when necessary, versus their small mischiefs/misdemeanours becoming the brunt of our temperament on a certain day. Wow that was so easy to put down, soooo difficult to practice!!!!!
But in the last 5 and a half years, when I have been a stay at home mom bringing up my daughter and now my son too, it really worries me sometimes if my lack of patience is affecting their temperament in life too. I can see now that my son (who's already in his terrible twos) mimics my loss of temper with reacting the same way when I raise my voice to him. I wonder if impatience or short temper is in the genes or if it is something we pick up by example through our subconscious when we are at an impressionable age.
About 6 months back, I was diagnosed as hypothyroid and though I didn't have any major symptoms that I could figure out other than hairloss maybe, I have since then realized that "something" has just worsened my impatience. On some evenings I feel like the children are completely out of control and it builds up to such an extent that things just boil over and spill out. Thanks to my husband pointing out that it sounded like I was the one out of control, and that I sounded very unlike my usual self, that I have become more aware of these times, and manage to step back and hold on to my temper by taking deep breaths or some such thing. But on days like yesterday when he was not around and I was managing both the children on my own and they were making me repeat everything 10-20 times before getting things done, I just lost it :(.
I am hoping to put down some of these things to remind myself to work towards bettering the way things are. Any behavioural problems on the part of children are only compounded by our impatience or short temper being shown on them. Although I believe a totally soft upbringing is not the right way, we have to find the balance between reprimanding children when necessary, versus their small mischiefs/misdemeanours becoming the brunt of our temperament on a certain day. Wow that was so easy to put down, soooo difficult to practice!!!!!
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